tsk tsk

just another day of feeling useless (somehow i think this isnt correct) lolz.

i wana go to the beach and kill time snorkelling. i dont want to spend time living anymore.
looking at your picture doesnt help at all. not knowing what to do comes 2nd place.. to knowing that i am worth nothing..

oh f***

years ago i thought that people doing drugs and alcohol or wasting their life because of painful things.. or that they feel rejected and not liked is a cliche'... fast forward.. that is my life.

they say i am being a coward. but i cannot help it now. i shouldnt have done what i did (getting into vices) but what can i do.. nobody was there when i needed them..

sigh. there are so many things i want in this life. but too many times i have been rejected or not able to get what i want... id rather be dead.

you are a disaster...

such a beautiful disaster. ='(