When Did You Fall by Chris Rice

You're all smiles and silly conversations As if this sunny day came just for you You twist your hair, your smile and you turn your eyes away Come on tell me what's right with you Now it dawns on meprobably everybody's talking There's something here I'm supposed to realize Your secret's out and the universe laughs at it's joke on me I just caught it in your eyes It's a beautiful surprise
When did you fall in love with me? Was it out of the blue? 'Cause I swear I never knew it When did you let your heart run free? Have you been waiting long? When did you fall in love with me? When did you fall in love?
Make your way over here, sit down by this fool and let's rewind Come on let's go back and replay all our scenes Point out the hints, the clues, the twists and the smiles this time All the ones that slipped by me I bet my face is red and you can hear my heart pounding Well I guess it don't matter now that I realize 'Cause baby I missed it then, but I can surely see you now Right here before my eyes You're my beautiful surprise
When did you fall in love with me? Was it out of the blue? 'Cause I swear I never knew it When did you let your heart run free? Have you been waiting long? When did you fall in love with me? When did you fall in love?
Was it at the coffee shop? Or was it that morning at the bus stop? When you almost slipped and I caught your hand Or the time we built the snowman? The day at the beach, sandy and warm Or the night with the scary thunderstorm? I never saw the signs And we've got to make up for lost time And I can tell now by the way you're looking at me I better finish this song so my lips will be free Yeah
Have you been waiting long?When did you fall in love? I kept you waiting so long When did you fall? Have you been waiting long? When did you fall in love with me?
When did you fall in love?
Was it at the coffee shop? Or that morning at the bus stop? I never saw the signs No, no
'Cause I'm gonna fall I'm gonna fall I'm about to fall in love And I need to know When did you fall for me?
My lips will be free My lips are free My lips are free

listening to When Did You fall by Chris Rice

a lot of trivial things happened to me in the last 24 hrs. so much suspense that Jack Bauer felt insecure. heheh ok.

so point #1, yesterday afternoon we got an e-mail (we the team) from our Manager that I will be moved to another location. argh.. my route would now be 2x, and as Albert pointed it out prolly more than 2x my travel time now. hmm..

i felt numbed. lolz i felt lazy.. again. i had a chat with my friend who is now in Dubai. He told me he is gonna look for a job for me there. There goes my future again, so many loose ends. but i will save all my rants on the later part.

evening came. Karen went to the gym to play table tennis. Dencio and I followed less than a minute later. I wasnt able to play because i didnt bring proper gym attire. argh. =(

so i went down.. i wanted to hang around outside the coffeeshop.. but it wasnt so good, it had just rained.. i walked back inside the receiving area., and read the news. people were coming in and out of the area . day shift people logged out EGRESS granted.. night shift people started to flock the area. ACCESS granted. fuck the area. =P

just as i was to go back up., i bumped into densio, telling me karen is no longer in the gym. I said i will just catch up with them. i will eat my dinner in the 7th floor pantry. That i guess is the first time ever that i ate my dinner at the pantry in my floor.

As i have said in the prior blog, an ex-officemate treated us to lunch.

I had my lunchbox (food) for dinner. I was eating so fast that i choked. it was the worst experience. lol. i thought i was gonna die. the place was quiet. and it was dark. i struggled to run to my desk to get my mug. (i just realized while writing this piece that there were other tumblers i can use without wasting a second or without moving an inch. but fuck that man).
So i got my mug and I ran back to the pantry to get water... wait.. i didnt i prayed to God there was water in my mug when i grabbed it and at that instant i dranked it.. putting my whole trust (life maybe) to God.

and true enough.. there was water. enough to clear my diaphragm.

after that incident. i smiled to myself. what couldve happened if right then and there i was too lazy or hesitated for a minute to move.. .. that could have been the end of me. and this blog. =P

so i went down to meet Densio and Karen. smoked a stick, and went into "panic" mode. it's late., me and karen didnt have our cars, it is raining.. and we needed alcohol.. FAST.

hahahah and then Ooming came. Oming is our newest classmate. He dropped out of Sober'sHigh. so he enrolled to our school. hopefully the entire sem.. , and maybe as long as we all get our PHDs.

after some conversation (non of em in the same level as we usually do when we are not so sober.. lesser sense of urgency., lesser emotions. lol).. it was more attuned with the cold piss from Zeus.

i decided to go home. raincheck. and i was greeted by a dead rat in the pathway. =P "so long you rascal" ehehe literally. i saw a dead rat. and i got into the L I T O C book again. How the city was so dirty and Dr Juvenal Urbino's dad blah blah blah.. helped blah blah.. im not for him. im for Florentino Ariza. =P read the book and you will understand.

When i went home. i got undressed. And i slept. time check 20mins before 10pm. oh yeah i read some pages of the book. but the idea that night was to sleep. Sleep so that when i wake up, all teh hassles of the day and the days to come will be gone. Well i half-believed it would be true. ='(

i woke up around 3am. drank water. and slept.... but before that...

I had a very strange experience. I said to myself this year i will be 25, i need to work somewhere where i can be "extremely" wealthy in my last year., that is when i will be 27. hehehe that was a funny thought. but not so funny when i had a vision.

that i didn t die. because i begged not to. and i was somewhere in my 90s and that day.. I WAS certain that i would die. and some thoughts were very clear... that i felt pain in my heart. i dont know why. but i somehow i felt that time when you are certain that you will die and you did... and "you're dead" blah blah. ok so i jumped into the future when i said to myself "oh no, this is it" and i died..

i felt the emptiness. but i what lingered was the second in between. the pains of the things i shouldve done.. and those i should not have done.

morning came. i woke up at 7. watched tv. i didnt eat breakfast. our helper went to the province..

everything was normal. i am usually my cool not so sad not so happy self. but now more than ever.. i needed someone to be with me. my life seems so lonely. argh. yeah it is. i am actually more troubled than i look. lol i understand some people have "trouble" with the way i look. but that is in another grammar.

but i believe things will go well.. for me and everyone else. and for you... who i will spend my whole life with.. soon.

ahhahahhaha you guys check out When Did You Fall by Chris Rice.. it is a nice pick. thanks Jill for pointing my way to the song. =)

yay ger

another sleepy afternoon. this day would've been just one of those boring, non-so unique days of rainy June, had it not been for the LUNCH. hehehhe =)

Samantha treated us(me and some officemates) to lunch. =) thanks sam!

i am currently listening to my "kasakit songs" the current song is Breathe by Telepopmusik.. .. wait.. now it is Flying High by Jem,. heheh whoa!.. nice nice

last night me, karen, xylon and ruel went to kahayag. me and ruel wanted to play onstage when the band was still having a break. but we didnt. i ate a lot. and drunk 2 glasses of rhum hehehe. its a good evening.. not sober but not drunk. and again.. i almost hit a Dump Truck. hehehe i dont know.. maybe im not a very good driver. but then again, the fact that it is always an "almost" makes me a good one. right? =)

anyway. i was very bored this morning and frankly the whole day..

so i searched through the old pictures from the fileserver.. and whoa. i got me some old pics.. during that Christmas party when our band play...

i edited it to look like the lakehouse ad. notice the guy in full colors? lolz

Satellite - BT

We'd like you to leave immediately.

(Next subject...)

We can see the satellite at uh,
a distance of about uh,
I guess over 15 miles here.

It looked like a star as you looked up.

See here, we have a beautiful view
of the earth down below as the satellite departs.

She smells of the sun
and she's constantly saying
that's it's all right,
because lies sound so nice.
And like soil to seed goes
to casting my fears aside...

She says, "The satellite is coming".
I pray, the wrecking ball is waining
She says, "The satellite is coming.
It's come to take us home".

Satellite...

Still smells of the sun
and the light that brings healing
is burning my eyes
and the dark seems so nice
and I'm choking on blessings that I can receive
I hide.

She says, "The satellite is coming".
I pray, wrecking ball is waining.
She says, "The satellite is coming.
It's come to take us home".
[repeat out]

Love in the Time of Cholera, and grammar

here's an edited version... i was embarrased to read my writing this morning.lol

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ok ., so i havent finished the book yet. let me make that clear. but i am sooo proud as to have had a chance to read one. =) I got interested in this book for only one reason, that it was used in the movie Serendipity.

Fortunately. (poverty of words) i have with me a borrowed copy.

And as i was reading last weekend,.. words can't express how much the book has enchanted me. two thumbs up to Mr. Marquez. =) i dont read books that much. The last one i read was Omerta. it was a great read as well. this one is different. it is in every sense.. a series of romantic words weaved into a story that dont only awaken your senses, but tells you a thousand "somethings" about LOVE.

i cannot fully describe the feelings the book invokes .. not when it says..

- that the boy's mother is aware that his son has a sickness.. but she isnt sure that it is cholera or it is love.. for both have the same symptoms...

- that the boy's love interest.. somehow felt, that when she attends High Mass, and when the choir plays the church hymns,.. she is certain that the violin plays only for her.... ahem, the boy plays the violin.


that, and i haven't read half of the book yet.
=)

argh....

*just a thought,
someone can continue loving someone else for half a century, even if this someone already has a family of her own.

hmmm..

Love in the Time of Cholera

ok ., so i havent finished the book yet. let me make that clear. but i am sooo proud as to have had a chance to read one. =) I got interested in this book for only one reason, that it was used in the movie Serendipity.

Fortunately. (poverty of words) i have with me a borrowed copy.

And i was reading last weekend,.. words can't expressed how much the book has enchanted me. two thumbs up to Mr. Marquez. =) i dont read books that much. The last one i read was Omerta. it was a great read as well. this one is different. it is in every sense.. a series of romantic words weaved into a story that dont only awaken your senses, but tells you a thousand "somethings" about LOVE.

i cannot fully describe the feelings the book invokes .. not when it says..

- that the boy's mother is aware that his son has a sickness.. but she isnt sure that it is cholera or it is love.. for both have the same symptoms...

- that the boy's love interest.. somehow felt, that when she attends High Mass, and when the choir plays the church hymns,.. she is certain that the violin plays only for her.... ahem, the boy plays the violin.


that, and i haven't read half of the book yet.
=)

argh....

*just a thought,
someone can continue loving someone else for half a century, even if this someone already has a family of her own.

hmmm..

a loser pauses and ponders....

what good is writing all these words
when you think they are meaningless

what good is my playing the guitar
when you dont hear the melody of my heart

what good is my living this life
when i know you wont want to share it with me

what good is loving you,..
when i know someone else can love you better.

4:43 pm

i had my short break from work. and i surfed for any thing readable. hehehe

i looked for led zeppelin, in wiki. and then i was led to a robert downey jr movie. then to his bio. and then i remembered the film Only You. Starring mr d jr., and ms. tomei. =)

i dont have enough info about the movie now. but i remember something wierd happened while i was watching this movie way back when i was still 2nd year college. heheh

hmmm. i need to sleep

hmmm...

i walked with her under the pouring rain
we shared my jacket as we skipped to the car
i held her hand and we are shaking cold,
then we laughed and drove off

i basked with her in the summer sun
took a dip into the ocean till sundown
waited for the light to turn to dark
and had dinner under the moonshine

i am everything she has hoped for
she's everything i ever wanted

you and i both know that i loved her
but i cannot love her as much as i do you,
cos girl she only looks a lot like you...

.. just so i wont forget

i have been forgetting a lot of things lately. i remember texting my best girl bud early one morning telling her that there is some new id like to tell her.. but then when she textd me last night. i totally forgot about it. hehe i called her, i was drunk and apologized. anyway...

last night i had a wierd dream.

i dreamed i was riding a mountain bike in one unknown hill. argh.. just as i am writing this piece, im listening to Chicane's No Ordinary Morning..

f*** anyway. so i was riding a bike. and then suddenly it was a race. it was muddy.. or something. then i was called by the umpire(linesman) whatever. he told me that i didnt register. so i have to go all the way back .. and go to a booth in SM. and register there.

hehehe. then i dreamt i told my sis im moving to this house in the SOuth. i told her id be going there this weekend.

hmmm...

... just finished another song poem

please check "walk home" hehehe that piece has been on the draft for days now.
=P

i had just found time to continue it. though, ultimately it no longer had the feeling it had before. tsk tsk.

=)

talk about fleeting emotions

and an utterly useless sh*T hahahahha see "drowned" below.

Drowned

you know when you have seen it all
the soles of your shoes goes thin
tired of walking the life out of you
into the arms of what you dont know

don't be scared
i am here, as i was here before

dont you know the world is small
it wouldve ended before it will begin
so tired of the strife of what's true
into the arms of the fool's hearts

don't be scared
i will love you, as i loved you before

the truth is when it is all gone
nothing remains but the face of the one that changed your life
so if you would just sit still
your mind wont drown

turin brakes lyrics

Pain Killer - Turin Brakes

for my love of Launchcast.. and the lack of it now.. i will just have to do with reading the lyrics to one of my favorite songs.. heheh =(

Batten up the hatches, here comes the cold
I can feel it creeping, it's making me old
You give me so much love that it blows my brains out

You need something better than the bacon and eggs
The creaking in the walls and the banging in the bed
You give me so much love that it blows my brains out

Summer rain,dripping down your face again
Summer rain,praying someone feels the same
Take the pain killer, cycle on your bicycle

Leave all this misery behind
My love giving me head, feeling very guilty,breaking the bread
Losing my attention, taking the world on

So batten up the hatches, here comes the cold
I can feel it creeping, it's making me old
You give me so much love that it blows my brains out

Summer rain,dripping down your face again
Summer rain,praying someone feels the same
Take the pain killer, cycle on your bicycle
Leave all this misery behind
My love, my love, my love, my love oh my love

Summer rain,dripping down your face again
Summer rain,praying someone feels the same
Take the pain killer, cycle on your bicycle
Leave all this misery behind

Summer rain,dripping down your face again
Summer rain,praying someone feels the same
Take the pain killer, cycle on your bicycle
Leave all this misery behind

saturday

i woke up around 11am last saturday. ate lunch a few mins after.. and around 1pm, went back to bed. for some reason i feel very lazy.,.. and very tired at that.

i woke up around quarter to 5pm.. then i started texting people what they were up to. some plans didnt push through. ='( but its all good. luckily my friends, arman, mark and others are in the mall. they are planning to watch Lakehouse. i wanted to watch the movie, and i know if i plan to watch it this week there is a very slim chance it is happening.

so i made a quick bath.. i aint so stinky no more jill. hehehe =p

it was raining. but i felt i had to go out of the house that night. i dont know why. wait, i just remembered... well i forgot if i ate dinner but i assumed i did. i borrowed P500 from my money in the house. because i wasnt able to withdraw some cash earlier., but what's odd is i spent P300 on gas, and P200 on the oil.. so im back to having a few pesos left in my wallet. Up until now i dont know why i did that. lolz. =P

anyway. so i went to this mall. and parking is hell... karen confirmed it later. lolz.. and i even stole someone else's "assumed" spot. he/she honked me. for the first time in my life, doing something bad didn't feel so right. hahahaha =) yeah. well i dont know. i sort of felt guilty or something. but there was nooooo path lines. =P

anyway. so there i went up to the mall it was around 6++ and we bought the tickets, and i went to get me some cash at an ATM. while arman and our friend went to look for Havaianas..,. Arman and Jerus went to the parking lot, cos jerus wanted to get some stuff from Arman's car. then they texted us that the FREE parking lot is now open. so me and Bontic raced to where we parked. She got there first. lolz.

I was on a line, going out of the parking lot, i handed out my P50 (for a P10 parking fee)... and for some "unknown" reason i stepped on the gas and sped away. without getting my change. and parked at the free parking. lol next to my friend's cars..

i went inside the mall. thinking why i did that. and if i should go back to get my change. thinking that i transferred to a free parking to save money but i wasted P40 anyway. what b.s. =P

anyway. i climbed the escalator. and i was at the 2nd floor. i textd my friends, and they told me they were waiting just at the entrance in the ground floor. waaaah. and i came down to meet them and they told me... "u shouldve said u were up already." i said to myself.. yeah.. why didnt i do that./ ='( talk about preoccupied with the invisible. lolz.

so we fall in line for the movie.. the LAke House. i dont know if it's in two separate words or not, im too lazy to check now..

after the movie.. (im not gonna talk much about the movie) anyway.. so we went to BTC, and ate some pizza,spag and SPICY CHICKEN WINGS. lheheh ..

then we went to Badger's to watch the world cup. when we came in, the Portugal and Iran match ended with 2-0(portugal). .. and a few mins later Ghana an Czech started. we left at half time , Ghana scored 1-0 . , the goal was scored at 2mins from kickoff. hehehhe

they brought their cars to btc. i left mine at the mall.. lolz.. luckily it wasnt sitting alone in the parking lot..(and not without the rims or vandalized)

and we went home. not so sober.. but not at all drunk.

cheers!

The Lake House - original soundtrack

1. This Never Happened Before _ Paul McCartney
2. (I Can’t Seem To) Make You Mine _ The Clientele
3. Time Has Told Me _ Nick Drake
4. Ant Farm _ Eels
5. It’s Too Late _ Carole King
6. The Lakehouse _ Rachel Portman
7. Pawprints _ Rachel Portman
8. Tough Week _ Rachel Portman
9. Mailbox _ Rachel Portman
10. Sunsets _ Rachel Portman
11. Alex's Father _ Rachel Portman
12. Il Mare _ Rachel Portman
13. Tell Me More _ Rachel Portman
14. She's Gone _ Rachel Portman
15. Wait For Me _ Rachel Portman
16. You Waited _ Rachel Portman
17. I Waited _ Rachel Portman



i sure was haunted by the voice that started to sing "i'm very sure this never happened to me before i met you and now i'm sure this never happened before " only to realize that it was sang by SIR Paul McCartney himself. =( i sure am a lennon fan.. but this time, Paul did a song that sends me back to his "No More Lonely Nights" days.. or his other ballads. (obviously not a paul fan).

great great song. *thumbs up*

hmm.. i was certain that i heard Nick Drake's Pink Moon in the movie. but as i "googled" it was another Nick Drake song.. hmmm. see? and i have just searched for N.D.'s pink moon lyrics and it goes "I saw it written and I saw it sayPink moon is on its wayAnd none of you stand so tallPink moon gonna get you allIts a pink moonIts a pink, pink, pink, pink, pink moon." . Well, correct me if im wrong but i think i heard that in the movie. =(

suddenly. i missed listening to launchcast. my genre is Cool As Folk. it is my ultimate DOWNER music. hehehe well, its a clean substitute to the mostly unacceptable form of keeping my heart cool. whatever.

so the eels have their score up there too.

Here are the lyrics to the songs, sans the score...



This Never Happened Before - Paul McCartney

i'm very sure this never happened to me before
i met you and now i'm sure
this never happened before
now i see this is the way it's supposed to be
i met you and now i see

this is the way it should be
this is the way it should be
for lovers they shouldn't go it alone
it's not so good when you're on your own

so come to me now
we can be what we wanna be
i love you and now i see

this is the way it should be
this is the way it should be
this is the way it should be
for lovers they shouldn't go it alone
it's not so good when you're on your own
i'm very sure this never happened to me before
i met you and now i'm sure
this never happened before (this never happened before)
this never happened before (this never happened)
this never happened before (this never happened before)



(I Cant Seem TO) Make You Mine- Clientele(Verse 1)
In the silence of the garden
Moss arizing on the wind
And the beast is pondering love love love
'Till the rusty nail grow dim

(Chorus)
I can't seem to make you mine
Through the long and lonely night
And I try so hard, darling
But the crowd pulled you away
Through the rhythm and the rain
And the ivy coiled around my hand

(Verse 2)
So I lingered with the people
In the silent August glade
But the rain has brought the night
And the night has brought the rain
(Repeat Chorus)


Time Has Told Me - Nick Drake

Time has told me
You're a rare rare find
A troubled cure For a troubled mind.
And time has told me
Not to ask for more

Someday our ocean
Will find its shore.
So I`ll leave the ways that are making me be
What I really don't want to be

Leave the ways that are making me love
What I really don't want to love.
Time has told me
You came with the dawn
A soul with no footprint
A rose with no thorn.
Your tears they tell me
There's really no way
Of ending your troubles
With things you can say.

And time will tell you
To stay by my side
To keep on trying 'til there's no more to hide.
So leave the ways that are making you be
What you really don't want to be
Leave the ways that are making you love
What you really don't want to love.

Time has told me
You're a rare rare find
A troubled cure
For a troubled mind.
And time has told me
Not to ask for more
For some day our ocean
Will find its shore.


Ant Farm - Eels

Hate a lot of things
But i love a few things
And you are one of them

Hard to believe
After all these years
But you are one of them

Walk down the streets I'm thinking:
Everybody move along
I've got a sad-hearted needing
To belong

Nevertheless
It's all the mess you made
But i can't let it go

Walk down the streets I'm thinking:
Look at all the ants in a farm
I've got a sad-hearted feeling
To harm

Hate a lot of things
But i love a few things
And you are one of them

pinch me

taken from the Barenaked Ladies song that just played a while ago.


hmmm. i was trying to renew my msn passport password, when i saw this movie ad. It's a Sandra Bullock/Keanu movie.. hmm.. what intrigued me (besides the fact that i have just finished the one week task) lolz. i was intrigued by the artwork.

>>>>> link added http://thelakehousemovie.warnerbros.com/?campaign=thelakehouse;amp&advertising=msn

how come Sandra's (whatever her name in the story is) face is in full color.... and Keanu is in black and white?

hmm..

i clicked it.. and found out about the movie. the LakeHouse.. =)

being the sucker for true love (the one that's meant for you thing) that f***ed up lie. lol, i watched the entire trailer.. and whoa!

i think Wicker Park and Serendipity got budged at the top of the list.. but then again that is highly debatable... the trailer started with a skating rink scene... hmmm another Serendipity?

what makes it more catchy for me is that it talks of a summer house.. hahaha the house in Samboan.

hmm.. could someone from another time have left me a note there? and... i was just too lazy to ride a bus ... ='(

there goes the love of a lifetime. *wink*

hoohum

i havent blogged for 2 days now. well a lot more than that, sans the useless thought i have said on the 13th.

im quite busy. and preoccupied with something invisible. i havent blogged that 2 days ago i almost got into another car accident. this time it's with a bulldozer. hehehe well, the bulldozer was moving from the center lane to the outer.. and i was speeding at the outer lane because it is the only empty lane (this happened again at the South Reclamation Project). the angled bulldozer continued to move even if i was visible.. lol.. i almost hit the sharp teeth of the godamn machine!

=)

but im alive. and im glad i am.

life is good. or not really. it is only a fair trade of not dying. death is the absence of feeling, therefore the absence of happiness and, trouble or pain. so which one would you rather choose?
i choose life, even if it almost seem useless and boring... and i complain a lot. but id rather be alive than dead.

before we go around in circles in that morbid issue. i'd like to note that rainy season is indeed here. i used to love the rain. when i was young, me my sis and my friends would go running around under the rain... =) and then we'd jump into the pool..

and then it would be time to bathe and dry up <-- we ultimately hate this part.

forward 15years. we barely meet with my childhood friends. sometimes, we just hang out around the pool (swimming or taking a dip, for some reason is a lot less appealing now).
we just drink, talk and play the guitar. we no longer even play hide and seek...

the weather has changed. we already bid goodbye to summer.

im still the same. in my perspective though. although i am quite sure that some people may say that i have changed. well, a friend of mine told me that i did. but in what way, i will never know.

@ office. i have been slacking off. but this week we were given a task. hmm i volunteered to help my team with the task. we need to edit some pictures a LOT of em. its all good. i learned some new technicques (spellcheck) hehehe Photo-editing is a challenging task. I edited this certain model's lips because half of it was cover by a "scene-stealing" tropical fish.

=P

there are sooo many things that i would like to say now in this blog. but they escape me. they want to go unnoticed. untouched. im listening to Billy Corgan and his guys.. play "TOday" which happens to be a suicide song. argh! enough of that. my lfe may not be the best that it is. i may not have the things that i want.. or the people, but i will go on living...

we are in the mid day of the mid month of 2006. what have you accomplished lately?... father time, you move so darn fast you caught me off guard. well im the guy that thinks slow, reacts even slower.. it is a talent, a curse a gift. mea culpa

walk home

walk home

i know you are out of town again
there's nothing left for you here
so you had to walk away

i am waiting for that moment
when all you had to to do dear
is walk home, walk home

you know better than to say amen
drown yourself with pity's beer
so you had to walk away

the rain in your head says your all done
watching you go far from near
i pefectly understand

but what i am hoping for is that moment
when all you had to to do dear
is walk home, walk home

at least something is working

i was just able to fix my sitemeter and tracking codes. whew.
=)

i officialy like the band AIR

call me "johnny-come-lately" but i just heard an album by Air..

and i like em. i like em a lot. that i want to listen to this all night and smoke pot.

ahhahaha no.. just listen to this. =)

im cleaning up my act now.

.. an isolated environment

i walked thru the stairs going down one floor below., i noticed that the city is gloomy. it is dark , the trees arent swaying... even the buildings are stiff. lolz. i f***ing want them to sway. =P

anyway. it is quiet too... but what got me most is how, this office.. or our office makes us unaware of the goings on outside. hmm.. if there had been a wild fire outside we wouldnt know... unless we look out of the windows.

hmmm.. it makes me wonder, if there is more to life than what i see..

no need to ask that. there actually is =)

i love life... although it is painful

Courtney Love raaaawwks!

All the Drugs

Devil’s driving my car tonight and he’s drunk
He’s pissed, he’s mad, I don’t care which of you he fucks up
I have played with fire and the matches that cut him up
They can try to shut me up
They never will, they never will again

With all the drugs (2X)
With all the drugs in the world
You can’t shut up that girl

There’s no one who can
Obliterate the truth cause there’s no lies that I could be and you would know

With all the drugs (2X)
But there’s all the drugs in the world (2X)
Ohhhh, ohhhh, yeah

With all, all of my money
With all, all of my love
With all, all of my money it doesn’t feel as good as the drugs

With all the drugs in the world
You can’t shut up that girl
With all the drugs in the world (2X)

Gonna make you, every inch of you
Oh, baby I’ll burn you till the lights all die
You’ll never, ever, ever fuck like me
So baby, why, why do you even try

Generation, it has slipped away
Baby, they leave no trace of it behind
Steal the power of the powerful man
Baby, leave here with me, leave here tonight

i hope i get to see this movie

this is not entirely a pinoy indie film. but i hope i get to watch this. hmmmm
=)

http://movies.msn.com/Movies/movie.aspx?m=583511&stab=3

im gonna buy me a stairway to heaven

im currently listening to this (satanic) classic, Stairway To Heaven. but the version im listening to now is of Bellanova. hmm i figured i would be uploading the songs or mp3s i will mention in my blog (if i have them) and post em in multiply so if anyone likes to here them, they can just dload it from there.

anyway. before i stray. or thesong ends.. ehhehe i think this song is not satanic., or talking about drugs. not at all. lolz not when u know led zep (the original composers) are not so sober. hahaha and yeah they have some affiliation to Mr Crowley(refer to a The Doors song) .

so what does this song say to me now?

hmm.. nothing but the words "someday i will get to heaven". yes, we all know that sometimes words have two meanings. and sometimes, they could mean nothing at all. they are "relative" right len? hehehe relative to the person, saying, listening, reading, writing... or freakin singing.

yes there are two paths i can go by. true. in fact, there are a million different choices in a million different seconds in our lives. the probability of walking the same path (given the power to relive your life) is 1 : 1000000000 . and that is a lot . lolz

there's a sign on the wall but she wants to be sure. i can relate to this. reading this symbollicaly, for me it means trying to bend the rules.. there is a sign. you know what you ought to do, but still you try to force the anti-thesis of things.. saying.. maybe... maybe i can do this (even though the sign says otherwise).. . true. most of us hate to read the manual from the new LCD monitor we just bought. we try to figure it out by ourselves, or from the quick instructions from the sales guy.

case in point. our pioneer dvd player. almost a year now and i still dont know how to save FM stations. lolz. cos i didnt read the manual.or i think i did, but skimmed through it.

sometimes all our thoughts are misgiven, sometimes people's thoughts are relayed in a different manner. so we better watch out for these kinds of "relayed communication"

it makes me wonder.. really makes me wonder. lolz

im sorry, im just writing crap while the song is progressing and actually repeating 5x now. and im trying to say something witty out of it. but nothing comes out of my wretched mind. lolz

if you wanna hear some digestible insight about the song.. check this link

http://www.soundstage.com/forasong/forasong200601.htm

swimming

when i came to the ofc this morning i was driving more carefully than yesterday. i told my mom i almost had an accident but i didnt tell her the exact story. i trimmed the 80km/h part and the shades. lolz

anyway.,. while driving (cruisin) . i was very late already but i didnt mind.

the music playing is Out Of My League but it wasn't Stephen Speaks version. i think that was a local pinoy artist doing it in accoustic and i like it =)


this line struck me most...

"cause it's frightening to be swimming in this strange sea , but i'd rather be here than on land "


it's her hair and her eyes today
that just simply take me away
and the feeling that i'm falling further in love
makes me shiver but in a good way

all the times i have sat and stared
as she thoughtfully thumbs through her hair
and she purses her lips, bats her eyes as she plays,
with me sitting there slack-jawed and nothing to say

coz i love her with all that i am

it's her hair and her eyes today

that just

and my voice shakes along with my hands
coz she's all that I see and she's all that I need
and i'm out of my league once again

it's a master for melody when she calls out my name to me
as the world spins around her she laughs, rolls her eyes
and i feel like i'm falling but it's no surprise

coz i love her with all that i am
and my voice shakes along with my hands
cause it's frightening to be swimming in this strange sea
but i'd rather be here than on land
yes she's all that i see and she's all that i need
and i'm out of my league once again

it's her hair and her eyes today
that just simply take me away
and the feeling that i'm falling further in love
makes me shiver but in a good way

all the times i have sat and stared as she thoughtfully thumbs through her hair
and she purses her lips, bats her eyes as she plays,
with me sitting there slack-jawed and nothing to say

coz i love her with all that i am
and my voice shakes along with my hands
cause it's frightening to be swimming in this strange sea
but i'd rather be here than on land

yes she's all that i see and she's all that i need
and i'm out of my league once again

if i had fixed my life,
would you have loved me?
if i had finished school with honors,
would you have loved me?
if i was more brilliant,
would you have loved me?
if i was more interesting,
would you have loved me?
if i was more athletic,
would you have loved me?
if i was born from a well-to-do brood,
would you have loved me?
if i had cut my hair neat,
would you have loved me?
if i had shaved my face clean,
would you have loved me?
if i had carried myself well,
would you have loved me?
if i was good looking,
would you have loved me?
if i was soft-spoken,
would you have loved me?
if i wasnt laid back and was more serious in life,
would you have loved me?
if i wasnt so into music,
would you have loved me?
if i never did crazy things,
would you have loved me?
if i never did drugs,
would you have loved me?
if i never hang out with my "bad" friends,
would you have loved me?

if i had the good things that i dont have, maybe you would have loved me

traffic light says yellow... meaning Caution

life is not only unfair, it is full of bs too.
i feel like someone grabbed my heart and squeezed it.

what i day. it started with me almost causing a 3 car pile up at the South Reclamation Road. hehe I just put on my shades, driving at 8okm/h (oops beyond max). When i tried to look at the rear view mirror to check myself, i didnt notice that the car in front of me made a sudden stop. Thank God i was able to push my brakes. It made a squeeeeaaking sound.

The reason why both cars infront of me stopped? A small motorcycle, driven by this stupid guy, suddenly stopped.. ... because the driver went to pee. I think he was drunk. well fuck i dont care about him or his life. he shouldnt have caused me that trouble.

but anyway. that's not the reason for this morning's heartache. lolz.

it is something else.

the hobbits with elvin english

i am not on something. i swear. i didnt drink beer last night. =)

but i think i am hearing , well let's start with "seeing" hobbits in the office.
they walk around carrying papers with numbers on them.. millions of numbers
balance sheets and other stuff

they go to the copying machine, they sign the papers (to launch an attack on the orcs, maybe)

but what is most astonishing is that, although their primary language is that of the hobbits (lol, i need research in this area) , their 2nd language is elvin.

curiosly, they shift from mother tongue to elvin in a snap of a finger... that is.,.., when King Hobbit comes. lolz. i dont know.

well this freaking King Hobbit.. goes around.. and comes around my village too.

see? as of the moment.., the hobbits are still speaking in Language #1.

soon when King Hobbit (of Mordor) lolz.. comes out of his tent, and walks around...
these hobbits.. will talk Elvin again.

Paging legolas.

the ballad of the 24 somethings

u wake up and u go to the shower
u eat breakfast and brush ur teeth
u fix ur hair and u fix urself
u go to the office and then the day dies there

i say die, because i think there is nothing much to office life
other than a lonely chair that reclines back to a 120 degrees

now you go home and get drunk by yourself
and you become a bit smarter than who you really are
and you start to ask yourself,
is this worth it?

you guess not, pulled a gun and shoot urself
at least you did not die of old age, u said.


and you start to

A Staring Contest with a Flower

i went to church last sunday
and on my way home i walked into the park

there i saw a beggar, he was sitting on the bench
what's odd was, i was almost certain he was as old as me
25, maybe. If only he had his hair cut well, and his face clean shaven
and maybe if he ate at least once a day.

i sat at the bench on the other corner
trying to figure out what he was doing
he was speaking as if in a conversation with someone
but i examined further he was writing down something

i also noticed that his body is somewhat bent
was he inspecting the cobbled stones? or perhaps the flowers

after a few minutes he hummed a tune and left

i went to the bench where he was and found out
that indeed he wrote something down,
his very own poem, written in the simplest of words
entitled "A Staring Contest with a Beautiful Flower"

i cannot speak the words he spoke
but somehow i felt like i understood him

he was staring at the flower for months now
and he notices how beautiful it was
he always wanted to bring the flower home
but he didnt know how to take care of it

every day he looks up to see if the flower is doing fine

then something occured to me
i must be eating lunch now...

=P

revenge of the nice guys....

i wrote a million words about you
and will write some more

because they say love is not selfish
i set you free, i let you go
but nothing can the describe the feeling
when i see you with someone else
how, when you never tried

the thoughts that fill my head
are the very thoughts that break my heart

i never told you, but this is true
a thousand raindrops fell on me
each one of them filled with unexplainable solitude

the bitter cold that covers my skin
everytime i see you with him

i wish i had never said this
but may i begin to tell you about my mornings
a radiant sun, that speaks of a new day
but what good is today?
if it only adds up to the days you're not here

and the nights... the stars my love
one and one billion of them
resemble the chances you could have been mine

but we just let it all go
we were gods
we thought we can control destiny
but we cant

i can't begin to express how happy i am
now that you're in my arms again, my love.

here

i will finish this last bottle of beer
and walk away from here
i want to be where the birds fly free
and they can be as high as they want to be

dont try to find meaning in here
everything means nothing my dear
mountains and oceans, the beaches and the sea
let's go find that world for you and me

earlier this morning...

earlier this morning.. those f***ing TAXI drivers...., borrowed my car tools.

=P

erik is a dealer... ere a leader.

if you drink every day of the week (except sunday) and still be able to keep your job...

you are a Champion. and that is you erik. you are A LEADER. A CHAMPION

ahhahahah

WTF. =P